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Who I Am #1


(has nothing to do with the post, I just thought it was a fun picture)

In the next few weeks I'm going to be doing a series of self-reflective posts each directed by a prompt found online. Feel free to join in.


Prompt #1: My greatest challenge is...


A few years ago the end of that sentence would have been an unequivocal 'my temper,' but I seem to have moved past the raging desire to smash things (which is nice).


Now-a-days I think my greatest challenge is that of laziness. I find a million excuses to do those daily chores that make a house run efficiently. 


What then happens is that Ralexwin is forced to pick up the slack. If I don't do the dishes, he does. If I won't do the laundry, he will. If I decide I don't want to cook dinner, he's forced to find food for the kids.


I've teased him that I want a shirt that says, "MOM ON STRIKE." I've grumbled that he's an enabler.


The truth is I'm lazy.


I would rather sit and stare at the computer screen than deal with the life around me.


The irony is that it depresses me.


Life becomes colorless and bleak when inactivity rules. I don' feel a drive to be good at anything, just a desire to sit down.


It always makes me think of Newtons first law: "An object in motion will stay in motion and an object at rest will stay at rest unless acted upon by an external force."


Yesterday I made a list of things to accomplish and I cannot begin to tell you how nice and clean my house is today. Ralexwin said to me last night 'lists are good I've never heard anyone say they weren't.' He's right, of course. He always is.


He's the one that moves forward and never stops, never needs an external force to push him.


I need to work on this aspect of my life.


I am a firm believer that it is by working on one thing at a time that we create healthy habits. If you try to do it all at once failure is a given outcome. If you focus on taking one step in the direction you want (one improvement at a time), then you are more likely to succeed.


This is what I need to focus on in my life right now. Overcoming laziness.


I think I will start making a list at the end of my blog everyday... that way I have shouted to the world what needs to be done and it puts a little more 'external force' on me.


To Do Today:
Clean the Bathroom
Make cookies with the Mischievite (I promised)
Do more laundry
Go through the magazines I didn't get to yesterday
Load the dishwasher
Tidy up the family room
Make my bed


Comments

Lisa said…
I do like the one step at a time theory.

And I'm holding you to that list. You'll feel so good tomorrow to post that you did it all.
I could have sopy and pasted this to my blog. I didn't realize how much we are alike. I feel like THE laziest mom alive. I've thought if my husband set up a secret camera in our house he would be furious to see how long I sit at the computer. I think it would make me furious. It DOES make me furious. I don't watch TV, but I do sit a the ccomputer, while my children often sit a the TV. I KNOW I need to change...I'm just waiting for that external force. Why do I have to be my own external force? *grumble*
Travelin'Oma said…
I love the quote at the top of your blog. I am seldom sober. I roll around in words all day long. It's my exercise. South Dakota sounds wonderful!
cannwin said…
'Oma,

I have yet to find a quote that fits me as well as that one. I go weak in the knees over books in any form.

Mrs. Perkins,

Don't be to down on yourself, I think its a common failing of the stay at home mom whose missing social interaction. I still spent a lot of time on the computer today,I just feel less guilty about it.

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