This gave us enough time to put up our Christmas tree and get in a much needed family picture.
We haven't had a family picture in a few years. We're not one of those families that's ever paid more than $50 for a photo shoot (although I always wish we would). So a family photo is a big deal for us and I was immensely pleased to only have to click the self-time twice to get this one.
It's nice that our kids are at an age where they can appreciate and understand when their mom says, "Smile!"
Do you ever look at family pictures of yourselves and think--'Wow. That's all mine.'
As I was tweaking this photo I kept thinking about all the Christmas cards we've received over the years with those big families we know and their cute children. I remember being the 'young family,' or the 'new family,' and never quite fitting in with that other group. Then I look at this photo and I think.... Wow, I'm there. I'm that family. That's all mine.
Each and everyone of these children was carried in my heart and my womb and is growing so fast I can scarcely keep up. Yet, I still feel as if I'm a 17 year old girl playing at a game of house. Its sometimes overwhelmingly surreal to think that all this responsibility is mine. It's a heady feeling.
I spent 18 years wanting to be a grown up, and in reality I've only spent 11 being one. I'm still trying to get used to it all. When I looked at this picture I realized that no one else can see that part of me. The world at large see's what I saw in all those other Christmas cards--a happy, growing family with responsible, funny, loving parents.
So I wonder, am I the only person in the world who sometimes sits back and thinks, 'I can't believe I'm married.' 'I can't believe this is all mine.' 'I can't believe those kids are all mine.' ??