Yesterday was one of the worst days I have ever had in my life. As if someone had cut open my soul and layed bare my most secret hurts for the entire world to see.
I have never in my entire life felt such humiliation, rage and hatred as I did yesterday. When I tried to get to where Ralexwin was, I was so completely incapacitated by my emotions that I literally crumbled onto the steps below me.
And in those dark moments, on such a dark day, I realized clearly one thing. I miss South Dakota so much that I can feel it in my bones. I miss my house and my yard and my stupid driveway with it's stupid mud pits. I miss the fireflies and the humidity and the stupid mosquitos. I miss the biting cold and the freezing rain and the stupid snow days. I miss my sweet friends who love me and my neighbors who watch out for me and even the stupid angry man that yelled at me on my front porch.
I miss it all so much that I can't even bear to think about it.
So as I lay there on the stairs and sobbed into my husbands arms I could only say one thing... 'I want to go home.'
And I do... I really, truly do.
I have never in my entire life felt such humiliation, rage and hatred as I did yesterday. When I tried to get to where Ralexwin was, I was so completely incapacitated by my emotions that I literally crumbled onto the steps below me.
And in those dark moments, on such a dark day, I realized clearly one thing. I miss South Dakota so much that I can feel it in my bones. I miss my house and my yard and my stupid driveway with it's stupid mud pits. I miss the fireflies and the humidity and the stupid mosquitos. I miss the biting cold and the freezing rain and the stupid snow days. I miss my sweet friends who love me and my neighbors who watch out for me and even the stupid angry man that yelled at me on my front porch.
I miss it all so much that I can't even bear to think about it.
So as I lay there on the stairs and sobbed into my husbands arms I could only say one thing... 'I want to go home.'
And I do... I really, truly do.
Comments
I know our situations are different but I totally understand the comfort of having people that have been kind & helpful to you and wanting to be near them. Especially when your husband is not nearby. Having your husband with you can make such a huge difference when it comes to being in a less than perfect situation. I'm sorry he can't be. Hugs to you♥
Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.
~Helen Keller
mandi
Hmm... well, okay since you said please. :D