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Today I have to go to court. Why I have to go to court is a bit of a long story but essentially it involves an argument with Ralexwin, a slap and the police.

I have never been in trouble with the police in my life.

I have never even had a speeding ticket.... not even a warning.

I am so nervous that I actually threw up this morning.

I'm wondering how it is that my life took such a drastic shift in such a little bit of time.

Blogging is supposed to help me feel connected again with those who love and support me. Help me feel less alone.

Last night I felt about as alone as was humanly possible.

I wonder how long it will be before I don't feel so hollow inside anymore.

Maybe I'll go throw up again.


heather said…
It really isn't fair that this is happening to you. Good luck with the court. I'd be terrified too.
Ashy said…
I hope you got my voicemail the other day. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make this go away for you. I hope things go well with court. Love from us
Mary said…
I'm sorry for this! I know this can't be easy for you. Just breathe and take each day with baby steps. You can do this!
Tracie said…
I am so sorry for the hardships you are having to endure, court is not a fun place to be my hubby and I were just there a few weeks ago. Praying for you and your sweet family. And just know that you have friends here that care for you!
Rob-bear said…
LIke the others, I am deeply saddened by this particularly unhappy turn of events. I trust that yesterday went reasonably well, which is to say as well as possible in the circumstances.

Blessings and Bear hugs in your time of pain and sadness. I pay you strength in whatever is happening.

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